If my true feelings about life were exposed, I'd look like The guy from the minor threat record Arms folded head on my lap, Jaded from figuring out the truth Life’s not much fun once You're in this lifestyle for life And people won't stop asking from you Things you can't even do for yourself It's not so bad feeling useless, At least you all feel it too. I watch every day slip away From the couch in my dining room Knowing that there's other stuff to do None of it will matter in the end Is this depression, Or is this life? What's the difference, And dare I ask, What's the medicine, Is it medication? Or a musty basement Full of Christmas lights in the middle of July With that one guy who's name you Saw you remember but you can’t And it's eating you alive I'm eating myself alive 'Cause I am starving For a direction I'm done wanting So much protection, I need change maybe it'll come When I wake up tomorrow.

What if I told you I am proud of you For making my heart ache? I think I understand you’re just a go-getter And you’re trying to stay sane, But if I could be honest with you Some things never change, And if I told you I’m still waiting, Would you think it’s that strange? Because I still dream about you almost every night And I still walk that path in my mind. Yesterday all my troubles were the same, As they are today, And I don’t want to sound rude But I don’t hope that you’re doin okay without me It’s always a possibility but possibilities never change There’s one thing you should remember: You won’t be here for all of days But I still walk that path in my mind And I still dream about you every single night It’s not about the memories It’s about the way you always looked at me It’s about damn time this all makes sense I’m about to lose my patience

There's too many drugs in this world, Yet no one sees them until it's too late, It happens all at once and then you rush to gather the memories you have, Like it's just part of a dream Do you feel me They say we need more acceptance in this world, Then why is everyone learning to accept each other's hopelessness, And we're all too scared to tell ourselves, How we really feel about about our health. Do you see me They say we need more love in this world, Then why are all these people putting their love into the wrong things, Energy is neither created nor destroyed, So let's transform it, Then make it better. Do you feel me Do you see me There’s too much in this world So let’s take a step back And look at each other There’s too much talking in this world We could use more action So let’s take a step forward And make it better

It feels like there’s dynamite Planted in my skull Waiting to explode. All it needs is just one Thing from you And there it goes And it makes my heart beat in overdrive Just like when you said goodbye And I still feel empty inside Take me to prom, we were dumb but now we’re grown Take me to heaven like you do with every kiss Take my hand you know it’s not my fault I should take you to school And teach you you’re giving up on a friend It feels like being buried alive Something that still has all this life I’m left down here slowly digging my way out But I’ll be fine. And it makes my heart beat in overdrive Just like when you said goodbye I am still a little empty inside Take me to prom, we were dumb but now we’re grown Take me to heaven like you do with every kiss Take my hand you know it’s not my fault I should take you to school And teach you you’re giving up on a friend I know you’re trying to get as far away from here as you can I don’t blame you for that part but you should understand That no matter where you go all your past will still follow So start making amends before you give up on your friends. And if your happiness lies inside a One way ticket to Broadway Then I will buy your ticket today

I wrote this song to keep me company While you’re away on the road Finding home in the plateaus and the plains, This song is you. What’s it like following your own path? The same thing you always told wanted me to do I think you’re finally getting through To me I wish you could be here to see The deciduous Autumn leaves These Ohio trees aren’t growing Nearly as tall as you are What’s it like following your own path? The same think you always wanted me to do You’re finally getting through To me Life’s just not the same without you my dear It feels like there’s no one home my dear What’s it like following your own path? The same thing you always wanted me to do One day when we’re grown to be better Well I think that we’ll finally see the same horizon Because you’re finally getting through to me

Daffodils and in pastel drawings Keep me in my place But they are never enough To stop the things from slowing my pace Like a brand new cell phone All the applications It’s nice to talk to people but No real communication And my ass is getting tired of the couch That’s tired of the crumbs But it’s fine I’ll wait ‘til later Yeah I’ll wait ‘til later It’s fine I’ll wait ‘til later Yeah I’ll wait ‘til later I have so much trouble climbing the mountain And seeing the summit I’m climbing I only see the peak And for most people that can make you Pretty fuckin weak I’ll wait ‘til later to get off my ass Especially when you say “it’s gotta be fast” And I won’t make a change unless it’s for myself

f I was to be anywhere It would be away from you On the highest mountaintop Singing my own tune Well I hate to be a drag But love is so hard to find I’m just trying to get by loving myself But everyone here knows that’s not working And sometimes there’s nothing you can do The universe don’t care about my problems If I ever isolate myself I promise it’s just for my health You’re my best friend, my inspiration And I wouldn’t be here without you Well I hate to be a drag But I get sad sometimes I guess I’m no different from anyone else And everyone here knows I’m not working And sometimes there’s nothing you can do The universe don’t care about my problems If I ever isolate myself I promise it’s just for myself You’re my best friend, my inspiration I wouldn’t be here without you I still keep that knife Under my pillow at night To protect me from my demons Maybe I should be more afraid of myself But as for now I just can’t tell You are my best friend in the world And there’s no one thing that I could say to you To make me want you to disappear So keep on strumming Keep on strumming Just like you do And someday soon we will find a new place And find our own mountaintop Oh yeah

Been thinking bout you much too often I try my best to keep my cool ‘Cause I know that you need me as a friend Weaving in and out of patterns Finding people that don’t matter To us when they hurt us in the end And it all comes back to you my friend We are in a pressure cooker, I know it won’t be much longer The slowest things turn out to be the best I always know that your smile Will turn my day all upside down and Now I wish it were me who went out West With you And it all comes back to you my friend And it all comes back to you my friend These poems write the stories and I won’t put down my pen We were both destined for these endless Highway lines And it all comes back to you my friend In the times that you’re away I find new ways to feel okay I know you’re always with me anyway Still ponder what that lady said I think we both know what she meant But we were too busy laughing anyway And it all comes back to you my friend

I never thought you would be running away Can’t believe you really think of me this way You said said “I swear you’ll be the death of me someday” Just ‘cause I bring back memories of who you used to be I’m sorry I was too weak to say no All those times when you slipped up when you were trying to let go You might remind me of the boy I once was some small time ago But you’re the one who ran away kept giving me hope You were what I talked about in therapy Now I’m just talkin’ about myself You were everything I saw in my future But now I know I’d rather be in hell I have to do this on my own I know I am my only home And she we were not grown But you were loved and you were not alone And if you need me please remember You will always have my number I’m not a monster and you’re not the only One who can change One day you will see me again And you will have the strength again to call me a friend And I will have the guts to understand it was the end I guess life doesn’t play out like an episode of Friends I gotta stop looking to the past To define the possibility that we could ever last And you gotta stop trying to forget about the past or Or you’ll never learn to look back on the good times that we had Can’t say I’m scared of doin this on my own Just without you You still have that essence, the same as it always was Times have changed but the sky is still blue Do you remember that night We stayed up late talking bout your old house Back then we knew everything would always be alright I just hope you’re doin alright U might say I’m bullshit I might say you’re wrong In the end you’re my best friend although we lost control I think we could get along What kind of person are u painting me to be? Call yourself the victim when you know it wasn’t me Who turned you into the person you’re running away from You can’t grow without accepting your past One day will see me again and you will have the strength again to call me a friend I’m much stronger now that I ever was before And I wouldn’t be here without you I have to do this on my own I have to do this on my own And I have changed but to you what does it matter? And if you don’t care then it’s not my problem anymore.

And there’s still nothing I long for more than the weight of your head upon my chest And there’s still nothing I long for more than my own head upon my chest

When I met you, you were happy When I met you, you were happy Life was an adventure That it wasn’t hard to go on What’s it like losing someone? I still don’t know what that feels like I know how to stand up twice But what’s it like to re-learn to breath? How do I be a good friend? That’s what I always ask me Maybe it’s this anxiety Or just what my parents gave me You are like a hummingbird Out in the rain You only come out in silence So no one sees your pain And I am a black bear Foraging for answers I’m not unorganized All I want is answers Just trying to survive But I’ll be happy As long as you’re happy too Because without you: There would be no flowers There would be no bees There would be no honey And there would be no more me There would be no laughter There would be no trees Then there would be no air That you can re-learn to breathe This world needs hummingbirds And this world needs back bears And this world needs you And this world needs me And it will get better ‘Cause it always gets better ‘Cause hummingbirds come out when the sun shines too